Anger

There are some idiot in the world just to make your life harder when you need they help. I don't mention their name here but they really piss me off. Why don't give a try instead of just compare us with those five star hotels? If your expectation is very sky high, i suggest you go head to those hotel and makan better.

My mom told me that i am look fat recently. Ya...she is not the only one who said that, my classmate, my mom's friends, my sister, brother in law, my boyfriend etc. Ya, im just...fat.

Who said Indian men not handsome?

Jealousy + H7N9

My sister was jealous of me because my mom are more taking care about me. Whenever my mom ask me 'what you want to eat for dinner?' and my sister will say 'why you always asking your son but not asking me?' According to my mom, this is not the first time that she compare me with herself, saying that my parents are giving me all the things i want. Sometime she said something ironic 'no money? go ask money from your bank lar (my parents), they sure will give you', and i just keep my mouth shut. Why do we need to compare? The living condition is different now compare with 10 years before. The things that we cant afford last time, but now we do. Is not my parents treat everyone different, they are just look at every child's living condition; my brother was married and he have his own business, my second elder sister are working bank, both of them are getting salary every month. I am not working and going for internship, of course my parents have to take care of me still. what to do? I just keep quiet.

I was reading daily newspaper justnow, an article saying that  H7N9 is spreading in north side of Taiwan (Taipei). The place that i going on July is just 1 hour distance from Taipei. Hmm...

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Had lunch with classmate in Paradigm mall today. She told me that her bf wanted to do airline cabin crew in Singapore airline, but have to sign contract with 5 years condition, so they argued. She worrying the relationship will not last long because of 5 years long distance relationship.

in the previous post i mentioned that i going to Taiwan to do my internship for 6 months, and i so glad that it just only 6 months compare to 5 years. I am keep telling myself to be independent and brave, this is a good opportunity to train myself. So...I am going to Taiwan on July.

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I don't know what to say actually...sometimes when i start asking second time, your will piss off with me. I am not purposely for repeat the questions, it must have some reason sometimes. I don't understand why need to piss off so easily. When come to working, if the candidates or manager asking the same question just to reconfirm or anything, will you be mad with them? No right? seriously, I don't know what to say...goodnight.

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I realize that the house will be come so quiet after 8pm; kids are going to sleep and tuition, sisters are going back to husband house and bf house, dad going to Bangsar for teaching Tai Chi every Monday night and Wednesday night, mom going to friend's house, brother and sister in law....no comment. Everyone have their own business to do, and I just sitting down facing my lifeless lappy and doing something nonsense to kill the time. In fact I have a lot of things to do but it just have something that stuck in the pipe line. I have todo my survey about my dissertation topic, make the decor part for F&B concept dinner, go for apply Taiwan Visa, looking for cheap flight ticket and etc.

I have stinky feet lately. I think....is my new shoes problem (probably my feet sweat a lot and blame the shoes now). The new shoes I bought was from Crocs, by right it will make the feet feel more comfortable and ventilated cus there are many holes on the shoes!

Talk about my internship, I has found out the Visa application fees and the place that i gonna submit the form. Money is the bigger issue that hold my decision. I need my parents to support me the visa application fees, flight ticket, and my living expenses in Taiwan. It make me feel guilty that i spend huge amount of my parents money just to let me fly across to Taiwan, and just for my internship. I has estimated the amount  that i gonna spend in the 6 months included flight ticket, it would be approximate RM 5,000. 5K leh....

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I was talked to my dad yesterday about the Taiwan internship. 

Me: Pa, i got the reply from Taiwan edi.

Pa: How? Accepted edi?

Me: Ya, they send me confirmation letter edi.

Pa: From when to when?

Me: July till Jan 2014, exactly 6 months.

Pa: Got salary or not? 

Me: No salary, but included accommodation and meals, and we have to bare the flight ticket.

Pa: I see, even you doing in other places, they also give very less allowance rite?

Me: Ya.

Pa: I see.

End of conversation.

So what is the answer? Yes or No? My parents will be going to JB and Singapore tomorrow and coming back on Sunday night, should i ask again on Monday? Hmm.... 

Confirmation?

Since my lecturer are asking the offer letter for internship from the leisure farm that i apply in Taiwan, they has sent it to me this morning. the letter mentioned that i will we working as INTERN, no-paid academic, and expect to be work 40 hours per week. Accommodation and meals are included, but i have to go to the place by myself upon arriving Taiwan airport. I have to discuss with my parents tonight, if everything goes well, i have to go for apply visa and look for air ticket as the leisure farm said i have to bare myself.

Taiwan or not?

Got an email this morning from Taiwan:

'Interviews are not necessary when applying for the internship with TLF. You are already accepted to intern with TLF. You can now go and apply for your VISA. Please let us know the specific date you be arriving in Taiwan and whether you need any help getting to the farm.

I hope you be able to find out a way to apply for a visa which will allow you to stay in Taiwan for more then 180 days.'

O.M.G! I was telling myself : 'okay...so...what am i gonna to do now?' I never expect that i could do my internship in Taiwan (actually i did, if not why i submit my resume...) I ran to living room and telling the news to my mom and sister. My mom was asking me to think twice cus i am going there alone, and ask me why not wait for the other reply from Macau? (My mom said Macau and Hong Kong are so much challenging than Taiwan). I have a doubt actually...the place that i going to do my internship are actually a leisure farm, are this experience will be useful for me when i working in hotel? Honestly, I don't like to work in a hotel, and i don't think that i will work in hotel after i graduate, but let see how things go on. After talked to my bf J, he suggest me to go on the offer, not many people will get this kind of opportunity to do internship in Taiwan.  So...........

Opps!

I have lost interest in adding bears in fb since 2 months ago. I have no idea about the reason but I started delete all those bears in my bf, and unfriend with those so called ‘friend’ that we even didn't talk a single word ( I added them because they look so BEARable at the 1^st time).  Feel so catch off guard rite? Me too. It doesn't mean that I lost interest of bear (because my bf is a BEAR too), but I just like to look look see see (of course I like to touch my bf lar!). I mean…who don’t like to see NICE creature? But I am not seeking for fun or anything (I am loyalty for my bf and nevertheless….innocence).

The reason might be I has started realize the real life society are so meant, growing up is the only way to survive in the world and being an adult. My mind started has this sort of mind set because the influence of my bf. My bf is 6 years older than me and he is an actual example for me. I saw the problem he facing, workforce, family issue, sickness etc. He is being so strong enough to facing the problems and never let the problem knock him down. Yet he did fell down but he climb up again at the moment. He have shown me how to be strong in life, just like a Radioactive (I love the song from Imagine Dragon). 

P/S: I love you J. =)

I started to feel how hard to become or I should say to behave like an adult (at least I get rid of my childish and naive thingy okay). I have to go for internship in the hospitality industry for 6 months from July onward. I have sent 4 resume to different hotels and only get back one reply. How hard to find a job now? I might not feel the real taste yet but for an internship? I feel so worry right now.

Pink Dot SG are in the corner (end of June), thinking of join the event with bf, but I feel more likely to go Malacca with him right now.

Why I using English to write blog instead of using Chinese word? Just want to improve my English written skill lor…abuden my bf will bully me with my broken English….haha! Just kidding lar! If anyone don’t understand what I had written above, you may ask me. :P

P/S again: I love you J. =)