Sunday, April 24, 2016

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I didn't expect it to come too fast. I was terrified and my mind just went blank. I still pretending like ignoring what she said to me. I clean the dining table, went to my room, sit down and try to calm down myself, I texted him for advise.

After like 5 mins, I walk to her and request for a talk. We sat down and I started to open up myself. This is the 1st time that I officially came out to my family member, my mom.

We had a long conversation and I told her that this does not involve any of my friend and I have found out myself when I was 15. I don't expect her to accept it immediately, but I just hope that she can understand it slowly which i am not sick, and I am still living as normal people, and I am still her son.

I supposed to feel release after open up to her, but I feel extremely depress now. I just don't want to lose my family, and him.