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距離上一次更新博客是在半年前，不知道還有沒有人在翻閱。

自從和媽坦誠后，她再也對我沒有什麼疑問了，還幫我擋了不少親戚的‘女朋友’話題。

也因此這樣，我搬回住了20年的老家，以免和任何人發生不必要的爭執。

一個人住，未必是一件壞事，至少能讓我安靜思考。

剛翻回到2010年2月的記錄，題目‘電單車行！’，想起了那時單純，簡單，美好的一段初戀。

事隔六年半，畫面卻好像發生在上個星期，依然感受到那當初的溫暖。

如今，只能說，可惜。

轉眼間快到年末了，今年還沒完成的事有如身體的肥肉，一直堆積著。

我呀，幾時才能去日本啊?

慶幸今年去了熱浪島和蘭卡威島，至少有旅行來放鬆自己。

工作上也沒有太大的變動，領導說會有好消息，叫我期待人事部的電郵。

好久沒有彈鋼琴了，擔心指法開始生鏽，是時候把它搬過來，和我相依為命。

我一直想著該不該買一只狗來陪我，至少我回到家時，有它在等我。

問題是，我去上班了，誰照顧它呢?

聖誕快到了，是時候計劃一下怎樣慶祝了。

晚安

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I didn't expect it to come too fast. I was terrified and my mind just went blank. I still pretending like ignoring what she said to me. I clean the dining table, went to my room, sit down and try to calm down myself, I texted him for advise.

After like 5 mins, I walk to her and request for a talk. We sat down and I started to open up myself. This is the 1st time that I officially came out to my family member, my mom.

We had a long conversation and I told her that this does not involve any of my friend and I have found out myself when I was 15. I don't expect her to accept it immediately, but I just hope that she can understand it slowly which i am not sick, and I am still living as normal people, and I am still her son.

I supposed to feel release after open up to her, but I feel extremely depress now. I just don't want to lose my family, and him.

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If we were still together, happy 5th year anniversary...

Cooper

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If we were still together, Happy Valentine's day.

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A thousand words to say.

Song for you

I have composed a new song for you, as the same, written and music compose by me. I added 3 difference languages in the lyrics included english, tamil, and chinese, and the title of the song is the 1st tamil language you taught me.

Naan Unnai Kadalikiren
Do you remember how you take my breath away,
when you kiss me on the street.
Do you remember how you cross my heart,
I won't let go of your hand.

Oh, even though the sky is crying,
or the road is near the end,

Naan unnai kadalikiren,
I remember every single word you said,
Naan unnai kadalikiren,
you and me,
我和你直到永远.

Do you want to listen the song...?

-Cooper- 09/04/2014

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'Good morning gundu...eh apa sal you bangun sangat awal? go liking my facebook post all.'
'Come come I give you a kiss to give you the nightmare away, mmmmuacks!'

Found this voice record while looking at the conversation history....
replay and replay....

-Your Lansi Boy- 09/04/14

A box of ships,

A box of love.

A chain of ring,

A reason of love.

-Cooper- 31/3/2014

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There is nothing else i can do since you decided to take a step back and think what you really want and discover yourself, and i won't just wasting time and do nothing while holding a hope that we can get back together. I will focus on my carrier too (if i able to get the job). Yes I know that I will cry every single night and missing you, but what I can do is just give you and our relationship some time and space rather than still blaming the mistake that already happen. I understand everything u said, I really do.

I do not know whether you are still reading my blog or not, if you did, I hope you really know what i am trying to say.

Naan Unnai Kadalikiren,
-Cooper- 28/03/14

Don't you remember

Are you still remember the songs that i wrote to you...?
Are you still remember the moment we spend together...?
Are you still remember the hardest time we has face together...?
Are you still remember the reason you love me....?

Am I really don't have any reason to hold your love on me...?

Please....

Please remember me once more....

True Love
Jeevan, don't you know my heart is you
Jeevan, can't you feel, my soul is you

Every time i think of you,
the smile is on my face,
cus your heart is telling me the truth.
And everytime I look at you,
you tell me Coop I love you,
Jeev, I'll be there for you....forever.

19th Floor
The sun is going down from the 19th floor,
standing in the frame, till the dark is come.
You hold me in ur arms, tell me don't be afraid,
there will be a star, lighting all my way.

Dacing On the Moon
When we were dancing on the moon,
hand in hand, step by step.
When we were lying in the sky,
hold my hand, belong to me.

No One Can Replace You In My Heart
When the moment you close my eyes,
hold my breath, kiss the day.
When the moment you hold my hands,
take a chance, to make a change.

You told me love is tough but I still never be tired on it,
you save me from sadness and I know, I know....

Baby, no one can replace you in my heart,
cus you are the only one that I want,
you told me what love is,
and we'll never be apart,
dreams came true....
no one can replace you in my heart,
no one can replace you....in my heart.

Friend
I dont wanna be a friend, just a friend,
i dont wanna close my eyes, while you walk away.
I want be your better man, not just a friend,
post my heart to you instead, keep it in a maze.

Tell me what you think about me, tell me how you feel,
I just wanna hold your hands,
I want be more than a friend.
-

I really love you Jeev, I really love you...
-Cooper- 27/3/14

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I-city has been huge developed since the last time we visit. Ferris wheel, water theme park, ice room and some 'interesting' activities (quoted cus i haven't try the new facilities yet) and all activities are charging individually. Quite interesting place and would like to visit and try the new facilities soon.

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I, Cooper, ready to melt your heart again.

Merry Christmas!

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I will be leaving Taiwan in 19 days and i have mixed feeling about it. It same with the feeling that when i leaving Malaysia. 

Few days ago i was following my colleague to Taipei and staying with her family for 3 days. This is the first time that I experience Taiwan home life style such as the ambiance, the foods, the way they communicate and behavior.

We went to jungle trekking in Elephant Mountain (象山), IT Fair in Taipei(資訊展), and some streets that full of own-brand shops. 

 Home made breakfast

Colleagues's dog, Ban Ban! 

 Beef Offal Noodles, I love it.

 Snacks 

 Taipei scenic view from Elephant Mountain

Beef Burger serve with Peanut butter, what a perfect match! 

 Dinner in colleague house.

 Hmm....I like the mystery ambiance it look outside, but it is a izakaya(居酒屋) inside. 

Sea Monkeys again

Recently i was checking the Sea Monkeys website and it was no longer available, it just given an order form to download if any order inquiries on the website. I has contacted Ms.Kim (Sea Monkeys Supplier from Penang) to seek out the reason. She told me that the Transcience Corp U.S has keep changing the director and no any news update until present. And she will get another batch of Sea Monkeys stock from other country just in case U.S will stop supplying Sea Monkeys products. Unfortunately, one of the Sea Monkeys collectors from Facebook told me that the Sea Monkeys products are discontinued in U.S market. It still an unofficial yet it still consider a bad news for Sea Monkeys fans just like me.

I was checking the market price of some the rare vintage sets that i collected, and the price gone up to 10 times compare to the price I bought. One of the reason is it super rare item now and nearly gone to historical legend. I am so lucky that i owned some of the super rare sets such as the Space Shuttle Expedition, Robo Diver and Executive Set.

Time flies like an arrow and I am leaving in 5 weeks time right after Christmas. Is time to christmas-ing my self with Glee's chrismas songs and ready for gift exchange season with my colleagues!

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Few days ago I was working in Taichung international travel fair. I notice that there are many gay couples (obviously 2 bears walking together) come and looking for travel package. They were so happy and sharing each other the flyers that they got from every booth. When they pass by our booth, i was imagine that how nice if I can attend travel fair with my boyfriend and planning our trip. For instant i wanted to go Malacca with my boyfriend. May I?

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I feel extremely emo tonight.
Goodnight

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下午兩點十六分，一人在家裡享受著時間不多的感覺。行李在角落躺著，等待著冒險的滋味。凌亂的電腦桌，卻和思緒一樣。問自己為什麼這樣，在這個時候答案已變得沒有什麼意義了。這樣的午後，好安靜。

給男朋友的話:

我不在的時候，請好好照顧自己，你的媽媽和姐姐。
等我回來。我愛你 J。

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Done online check-in, and waiting my mom to help me squeeze my baju everything into the luggage since she is so expert to pack luggage. 2 more days, i will be flying off to Taiwan alone, and start my adventurous journey for almost half year. Everything are still unknown for me now....I have copy down the way to go to the place after drop down in the airport, my flight is departing at 15 of July 2013 10am and the estimate arrival time will be 2.40pm. I'm scared....and exciting....i dont know....

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Beard, the most sexiest thing on man body. It give an awesome sensation while kissing on mouth or other part of skin.

“People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you.” 

― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage