Merry Christmas!

101213

I will be leaving Taiwan in 19 days and i have mixed feeling about it. It same with the feeling that when i leaving Malaysia. 

Few days ago i was following my colleague to Taipei and staying with her family for 3 days. This is the first time that I experience Taiwan home life style such as the ambiance, the foods, the way they communicate and behavior.

We went to jungle trekking in Elephant Mountain (象山), IT Fair in Taipei(資訊展), and some streets that full of own-brand shops. 

 Home made breakfast

Colleagues's dog, Ban Ban! 

 Beef Offal Noodles, I love it.

 Snacks 

 Taipei scenic view from Elephant Mountain

Beef Burger serve with Peanut butter, what a perfect match! 

 Dinner in colleague house.

 Hmm....I like the mystery ambiance it look outside, but it is a izakaya(居酒屋) inside. 

Sea Monkeys again

Recently i was checking the Sea Monkeys website and it was no longer available, it just given an order form to download if any order inquiries on the website. I has contacted Ms.Kim (Sea Monkeys Supplier from Penang) to seek out the reason. She told me that the Transcience Corp U.S has keep changing the director and no any news update until present. And she will get another batch of Sea Monkeys stock from other country just in case U.S will stop supplying Sea Monkeys products. Unfortunately, one of the Sea Monkeys collectors from Facebook told me that the Sea Monkeys products are discontinued in U.S market. It still an unofficial yet it still consider a bad news for Sea Monkeys fans just like me.

I was checking the market price of some the rare vintage sets that i collected, and the price gone up to 10 times compare to the price I bought. One of the reason is it super rare item now and nearly gone to historical legend. I am so lucky that i owned some of the super rare sets such as the Space Shuttle Expedition, Robo Diver and Executive Set.

Time flies like an arrow and I am leaving in 5 weeks time right after Christmas. Is time to christmas-ing my self with Glee's chrismas songs and ready for gift exchange season with my colleagues!

10102013

Few days ago I was working in Taichung international travel fair. I notice that there are many gay couples (obviously 2 bears walking together) come and looking for travel package. They were so happy and sharing each other the flyers that they got from every booth. When they pass by our booth, i was imagine that how nice if I can attend travel fair with my boyfriend and planning our trip. For instant i wanted to go Malacca with my boyfriend. May I?

200913

I feel extremely emo tonight.
Goodnight

140713

下午兩點十六分，一人在家裡享受著時間不多的感覺。行李在角落躺著，等待著冒險的滋味。凌亂的電腦桌，卻和思緒一樣。問自己為什麼這樣，在這個時候答案已變得沒有什麼意義了。這樣的午後，好安靜。

給男朋友的話:

我不在的時候，請好好照顧自己，你的媽媽和姐姐。
等我回來。我愛你 J。

T-minus

Done online check-in, and waiting my mom to help me squeeze my baju everything into the luggage since she is so expert to pack luggage. 2 more days, i will be flying off to Taiwan alone, and start my adventurous journey for almost half year. Everything are still unknown for me now....I have copy down the way to go to the place after drop down in the airport, my flight is departing at 15 of July 2013 10am and the estimate arrival time will be 2.40pm. I'm scared....and exciting....i dont know....

060713

Beard, the most sexiest thing on man body. It give an awesome sensation while kissing on mouth or other part of skin.

“People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you.” 

― Elizabeth Gilbert, Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage

030713

轉眼間就進入七月了，還有十一天，就要一個人啟程到台灣宜蘭實習半年。相比一些朋友要實習一年的，我似乎幸運些。其實我也沒有實習半年，正確來說應該只有五個月又兩個星期，七月十五日抵達台灣宜蘭，十七號開始實習至十二月三十一日結束。然後下台北逗留個三天當流浪者，再回來馬來西亞。可惜的是，不能和男友慶祝生日和聖誕節，我應該會從那裡寄一些禮物回來給他吧。心情非常複雜，因為我根本不知道我的工作範圍，環境和所有人事物都一概不清楚，希望一切順利。行李日需用品什麼的，還沒開始收拾。

星期五預約了按摩，然後和朋友出去走走。星期日和男友跟他的舊同事去玩卡丁车。之前去探望他朋友的時候，他朋友無意中漏了口風說關於有聚會的事情，什麼樣的聚會，几時的聚會，我不清楚。

Pink Dot 2013 在前幾天圓滿結束了，雖然我沒有出席，可是看照片和影片就能感受到那種開心的氣氛。明年的Pink Dot 2014，一定要和男友去。

24061

This morning i went to Menara Yayasan Tun Razak, and the haze is getting worst in KL area. I am so 'smart' that forgot to bring a water bottle and left my mask at home. I reach there at 8.45am, take number, 1001. Not even 5 minutes, hand in all documents, pay money, come and collect on Wednesday, done. Compare to FAATUM, TECO is more efficient. Everything is ready now. See you soon Taiwan.

New

The new series of Kamen Rider are coming soon, Toei's company has finally registered the copyright and trademark for the new series of Kamen Rider: Kamen Rider GAIMU 仮面ライダー鎧武 (ガイム). There are nothing official yet, but i cant wait for this! The Henshin belt and the heshin swords are look awesome!

I bought an Fudo Myo-o amulet on last week. 

230613

WTF! FAATUM is uselss! Just four days ago, my dad and I went go FAATUM in SS2 to apply Taiwan Visa. When we arrived the place, a guy was talking to the phone with impatient tone, and another was walking up and down like freaking busy, oh yeah, there only have 3 workers in the office.

When come to my turn, i hand in the offer letter and ask about the Taiwan visa and the staff ask me: 'have you ever make appointment with us? cus we are freaking busy now.' I was like...WTH! I come here also need to make appointment?! You thought i meeting VIP ah bodoh! You thought u are the only one who busy in the universe ah? Who ask u only hire 3 ppl in the ofiice? of course i didnt said that in front of the staff lar, but in my heart.

 Then i told the staff i am here to apply the taiwan visa for internship. The the staff reply: Have u ever make a call to ask about the information? WTF again, of course i did ask and i called N times before i come lar Jibai! and the stupid staff ask: Who you calling? WHAT THE FUCK U DUMBASS! OF COURSE I CALL HERE LAR! WHO THE FUCK I KNOW WHO ANSWER MY CALL!!! IT IS A PHONE OPERATOR YOU MOTHERFUCKER! Then i said i am apply visa for internship, not for study. He start playing TaiChi saying that the process of apply internship visa is different with the visa that study in Taiwan, ask me to go Taiwan Embassy to apply sendiri.

 OKAY, END OF CONVERSATION. My dad's friend came down from upstairs and saw us (his 'rank' higher than the stupid staff), he call to the Taiwan Embassy and ask about the internship visa, get all information, ciao, as simple as that. So, i gathered all the information and documents, and go to TECO on tomorrow.

180613

不知不觉的，已到了21岁，应该说，快要22岁了，感叹着，时间还过得真快呐。健康报告出了，明天去领取新护照，然后就去申请台湾签证。还有4个星期，就要飞往台湾了，虽说才那5个月，可是已足够让我想念这里的一切了。

250513

O.M.G, it is so surprise that having Kamen Rider fair in Malaysia! So far I only noticed this kind of fair are normally held in Taiwan or Singapore. But now in Malaysia! I am so happy that my boyfriend will take me to the fair together on next Saturday.

Not much to update in blog cus lately i am so busy with the thesis, and the due date is just around the corner, so u know college life....rushing in last minute!

On my way

I dah beli the flight ticket to Taiwan which is on 15 of July 2013, now i have to go renew my passport and apply Visa. I have 2 months and a week before i leaving, and i feel so worry, i dont know why.

 I miss you so much J, I love you. 

Weird Dream

Sometimes I try to recall what did i dreamed  last night, but I only can recall some part of it. I have a sweet dream last night, i mean i saw a lot of candies, chocolates and cupcakes in my dream. Weird right? but i dreamed it.  

Why so many candies, chocolates and cupcakes? because my boyfriend bought for me (I mean the story board in the dream lar). And then? I dah lupa lor....haha! Goodnight.

Anger

There are some idiot in the world just to make your life harder when you need they help. I don't mention their name here but they really piss me off. Why don't give a try instead of just compare us with those five star hotels? If your expectation is very sky high, i suggest you go head to those hotel and makan better.

My mom told me that i am look fat recently. Ya...she is not the only one who said that, my classmate, my mom's friends, my sister, brother in law, my boyfriend etc. Ya, im just...fat.

Who said Indian men not handsome?

Jealousy + H7N9

My sister was jealous of me because my mom are more taking care about me. Whenever my mom ask me 'what you want to eat for dinner?' and my sister will say 'why you always asking your son but not asking me?' According to my mom, this is not the first time that she compare me with herself, saying that my parents are giving me all the things i want. Sometime she said something ironic 'no money? go ask money from your bank lar (my parents), they sure will give you', and i just keep my mouth shut. Why do we need to compare? The living condition is different now compare with 10 years before. The things that we cant afford last time, but now we do. Is not my parents treat everyone different, they are just look at every child's living condition; my brother was married and he have his own business, my second elder sister are working bank, both of them are getting salary every month. I am not working and going for internship, of course my parents have to take care of me still. what to do? I just keep quiet.

I was reading daily newspaper justnow, an article saying that  H7N9 is spreading in north side of Taiwan (Taipei). The place that i going on July is just 1 hour distance from Taipei. Hmm...

260413

Had lunch with classmate in Paradigm mall today. She told me that her bf wanted to do airline cabin crew in Singapore airline, but have to sign contract with 5 years condition, so they argued. She worrying the relationship will not last long because of 5 years long distance relationship.

in the previous post i mentioned that i going to Taiwan to do my internship for 6 months, and i so glad that it just only 6 months compare to 5 years. I am keep telling myself to be independent and brave, this is a good opportunity to train myself. So...I am going to Taiwan on July.

250413

I don't know what to say actually...sometimes when i start asking second time, your will piss off with me. I am not purposely for repeat the questions, it must have some reason sometimes. I don't understand why need to piss off so easily. When come to working, if the candidates or manager asking the same question just to reconfirm or anything, will you be mad with them? No right? seriously, I don't know what to say...goodnight.

220413

I realize that the house will be come so quiet after 8pm; kids are going to sleep and tuition, sisters are going back to husband house and bf house, dad going to Bangsar for teaching Tai Chi every Monday night and Wednesday night, mom going to friend's house, brother and sister in law....no comment. Everyone have their own business to do, and I just sitting down facing my lifeless lappy and doing something nonsense to kill the time. In fact I have a lot of things to do but it just have something that stuck in the pipe line. I have todo my survey about my dissertation topic, make the decor part for F&B concept dinner, go for apply Taiwan Visa, looking for cheap flight ticket and etc.

I have stinky feet lately. I think....is my new shoes problem (probably my feet sweat a lot and blame the shoes now). The new shoes I bought was from Crocs, by right it will make the feet feel more comfortable and ventilated cus there are many holes on the shoes!

Talk about my internship, I has found out the Visa application fees and the place that i gonna submit the form. Money is the bigger issue that hold my decision. I need my parents to support me the visa application fees, flight ticket, and my living expenses in Taiwan. It make me feel guilty that i spend huge amount of my parents money just to let me fly across to Taiwan, and just for my internship. I has estimated the amount  that i gonna spend in the 6 months included flight ticket, it would be approximate RM 5,000. 5K leh....

200413

I was talked to my dad yesterday about the Taiwan internship. 

Me: Pa, i got the reply from Taiwan edi.

Pa: How? Accepted edi?

Me: Ya, they send me confirmation letter edi.

Pa: From when to when?

Me: July till Jan 2014, exactly 6 months.

Pa: Got salary or not? 

Me: No salary, but included accommodation and meals, and we have to bare the flight ticket.

Pa: I see, even you doing in other places, they also give very less allowance rite?

Me: Ya.

Pa: I see.

End of conversation.

So what is the answer? Yes or No? My parents will be going to JB and Singapore tomorrow and coming back on Sunday night, should i ask again on Monday? Hmm.... 

Confirmation?

Since my lecturer are asking the offer letter for internship from the leisure farm that i apply in Taiwan, they has sent it to me this morning. the letter mentioned that i will we working as INTERN, no-paid academic, and expect to be work 40 hours per week. Accommodation and meals are included, but i have to go to the place by myself upon arriving Taiwan airport. I have to discuss with my parents tonight, if everything goes well, i have to go for apply visa and look for air ticket as the leisure farm said i have to bare myself.

Taiwan or not?

Got an email this morning from Taiwan:

'Interviews are not necessary when applying for the internship with TLF. You are already accepted to intern with TLF. You can now go and apply for your VISA. Please let us know the specific date you be arriving in Taiwan and whether you need any help getting to the farm.

I hope you be able to find out a way to apply for a visa which will allow you to stay in Taiwan for more then 180 days.'

O.M.G! I was telling myself : 'okay...so...what am i gonna to do now?' I never expect that i could do my internship in Taiwan (actually i did, if not why i submit my resume...) I ran to living room and telling the news to my mom and sister. My mom was asking me to think twice cus i am going there alone, and ask me why not wait for the other reply from Macau? (My mom said Macau and Hong Kong are so much challenging than Taiwan). I have a doubt actually...the place that i going to do my internship are actually a leisure farm, are this experience will be useful for me when i working in hotel? Honestly, I don't like to work in a hotel, and i don't think that i will work in hotel after i graduate, but let see how things go on. After talked to my bf J, he suggest me to go on the offer, not many people will get this kind of opportunity to do internship in Taiwan.  So...........

Opps!

I have lost interest in adding bears in fb since 2 months ago. I have no idea about the reason but I started delete all those bears in my bf, and unfriend with those so called ‘friend’ that we even didn't talk a single word ( I added them because they look so BEARable at the 1^st time).  Feel so catch off guard rite? Me too. It doesn't mean that I lost interest of bear (because my bf is a BEAR too), but I just like to look look see see (of course I like to touch my bf lar!). I mean…who don’t like to see NICE creature? But I am not seeking for fun or anything (I am loyalty for my bf and nevertheless….innocence).

The reason might be I has started realize the real life society are so meant, growing up is the only way to survive in the world and being an adult. My mind started has this sort of mind set because the influence of my bf. My bf is 6 years older than me and he is an actual example for me. I saw the problem he facing, workforce, family issue, sickness etc. He is being so strong enough to facing the problems and never let the problem knock him down. Yet he did fell down but he climb up again at the moment. He have shown me how to be strong in life, just like a Radioactive (I love the song from Imagine Dragon). 

P/S: I love you J. =)

I started to feel how hard to become or I should say to behave like an adult (at least I get rid of my childish and naive thingy okay). I have to go for internship in the hospitality industry for 6 months from July onward. I have sent 4 resume to different hotels and only get back one reply. How hard to find a job now? I might not feel the real taste yet but for an internship? I feel so worry right now.

Pink Dot SG are in the corner (end of June), thinking of join the event with bf, but I feel more likely to go Malacca with him right now.

Why I using English to write blog instead of using Chinese word? Just want to improve my English written skill lor…abuden my bf will bully me with my broken English….haha! Just kidding lar! If anyone don’t understand what I had written above, you may ask me. :P

P/S again: I love you J. =) 

Three years has gone by with you

I love the way you tell me that im ‘lansi’,

and the way you make me laugh like no one else.

I love the way you flipping my hair while you watching tv,

and then kiss on my face.

I just love every single thing you do,

you are just simple adorable, my man.

You’re not a romantic person,

but I do felt the love from the bottom of your soul.

When I first met you,

I feel like I had known you forever.

Over a period of time,

I got to know the real you,

a man so caring and gentle,

shy and talented, with a heart so true.

You have survived your life from the past of hurt and loneliness,

but now I am here for you, and I’ll never leave,

because of the feeling inside my heart.

Time flies like an arrow,
we went through together for 3 years,
and I believe we will hold each other along the path,
from a decade, to another decade.
Meeting you has changed my life,

and I really love you so.
The feelings I feel for you,
I am never letting go.

Happy 3 years Anniversary darling =)

Cooper

就是喜歡牽著你的手

就是喜歡牽著你的手。

记忆•味道

你是否有些味道，能够唤醒你某些记忆?也许是开心，或痛苦。

今天发现爸爸车里换了空气清新剂，发出阵阵熟悉的味道，唤起了一些曾经美好却变得痛苦的回忆。

六年前，我在网上认识了一位网友，是以游戏为主而认识的。见面后，才发觉他也是圈内人。当时是蛮喜欢他的，可是注意一阵子后，发现原来他蛮花心的。他有本钱，车+屋子+事业+帅+有钱。他车里的味道，正正是我爸现在用的味道。画面在脑海里一幕一幕地滑过，在车里吃午餐，在戏院里牵手，在快餐店连机，去他家玩电动，被强吻。在几年前也许我会觉得开心，可是发生了一些事情，让我觉得他很肤浅，更变得目中无人，是我们之间变得更恶劣，最终以绝交结束所有东西。可惜?我觉得不，这种回忆，一次就够了。现在的我，幸福的很。

140113

Last friday (1 week after funeral) I was in my bf house cus next day is the prayer day for uncle, and i have to be there early to help them prepare the stuff. Aunty was told me that my bf didnt sleep the whole night, and they quite worry about him too. After we sitting down in the room, I manage to talk to him. 

C: Aunty told me that you cant fall as sleep last night, how come?

J: I dont know...

C: Aunty said you might not accept that uncle was passed away, and you just keeping everything in your heart.

J:...

C: You may cry if u want to, just release everything out, dont keeping in your heart, is not good for you.

J: Cry also no use, dad is not gonna come back... 

C: Yes I know, we have to accept the fact. I am not worry about aunty and your sister cus i will come to visit them as much as i can, but you are the person that i more worry about, you are not telling everyone and just keeping in your heart.

J:...

C: Just cry, release everything out...

At the moment, he cry finally.

You are not alone, you still got your mum, sister, me and your friends, and you are not alone to take care the house, as i will helping you as well. I just want to let tell you, no matter what happen, I will always be there for you. The house wont be quiet, cus i am the one who will make them laugh again.

Jeev, I will always be there for you, dont worry. I love you.

090113

今天从男友家回来，真的很伤心。某部分原因是男友的爸爸去世了，另一部分是因为看见男友和家人在伤心，哭，我却什么也做不到，只能陪在他们身旁，安慰他们。我真的很想抱住他，好让他大声的哭出来。昨天你在房间检查叔叔的遗物，看见你哭，我却什么也做不到，我很心痛，真的很心痛，想安慰也安慰不了，只能默默的坐在你身旁，想让你知道，不管发生什么事，我都会在你身边，不离不弃，因为，你还有妈妈，姐姐，和我。

给叔叔的话

男友的爸爸在昨天傍晚7点半，离开了人间。收到消息时，我整个人进入迷糊状态，脑袋一片空白，走来走去，像傻子一样，不知该如何是好。到目前位置，我真的不能接受这个事实。我会有如此反应，是因为叔叔当我好像他的干儿子一样，也喜欢和我看玩笑。

给叔叔的话:
叔叔，你还记得吗? 你离开的前几天，我和阿姨才带你去医院做手术后的复诊，你一切看起来并无恙，当天我还帮你推轮椅，还不小心差点撞到墙壁。我买了一个花篮给你，是祝你早日康复的，你喜欢吗? 爱吃猪肠粉的你，说等复原后要和我一起去吃。听你唠叨说儿子女儿不听话，中气十足。听Ryan说昨天早上你还提起我，问我几时来，说我帮你推轮椅。这一切我都很乐意帮忙，可是为什么会这样呢? 你还没有带我去吃好吃的猪肠粉啊，还没带我去sungai petani吃好吃又便宜的华人美食啊，为什么....我们会想念你的，非常非常想念。想念你叫我的名字Coop，想念你和我开的玩笑，想念你阳光般的笑容。希望你能在远方得到安息，我们永远爱你，叔叔。

写到这里，我已经哭到快要崩溃了，无论如何，我会把你好像干爸那样，放在心里。

Cooper